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[Charlie97]

I haven't posted here for quite some time now, and I have pretty much confined myself to a little shell. Even at work I used to go out and eat with my motorcycle partner or some of the other guys; but have kept my distance. I was making plans to meet with PamelaK back in October, when Charlie (DD) and I went to a concert in Houston. Just minutes before heading out, my best friend from Houston, whom we were going to stay with, called me up and told me his father had a massive heart attack; so he was on his way down as soon as he loaded up his car.

We have been pals for so long, that I naturally went to the hospital to check on his father. Since the passing of his mom, my buddy has distanced himself from his father and his sister. I waited in the lobby of the hospital and would give him updates anytime I received one. Just an hour prior to his arrival, Charlie and I headed out for Houston. We arrived shortly after 10:30 pm, and made ourselves at home at his house. His wife had some cold adult beverages waiting for me, and she and I talked and sipped our drinks until about 5am. We went to bed, and I woke up shortly after 11am. Charlie, my Godson, and his younger brother were barely making their way to the kitchen for food, so I washed up and began making something for them.

The day passed, and Charlie and I headed out to the concert around 3pm. We arrived at the Woodlands around 5, and walked around the Pavilion and mall until the concert started. The concert was good, and Charlie could not stop talking about it all the way to our friend's house. We arrived home around 2am, showered and fell asleep. Our trip back home to the Valley was nice, but too quick. I really enjoyed our time alone. My friends father came out okay after the surgery, and in talking to him later in the week, he broke down on me, and told me that he had been wanting to call his dad to see how he was doing...but he never did. He had a lot of remorse for not calling him, and his emotions told me that he was really scared of losing him. I cried inside with him, thinking how my estranged parents shunned me from the family two years ago.

For those new to the drama, I will not go into detail, just know that on Christmas Eve 2011 I was involved in an altercation at work that shook me up to my very core. I have been shot at 3 times at work, stabbed once, followed home 2 times, threatened more times that I care to remember, resuscitated three people from the brink of death, only to have one turn around and sue me and the agency...but I had never experienced anything like that night. The following morning I drove to my parents house and broke down and apologized to them. For years, threats were made to me by some scumbag, I would tell them to do their worst to me. Followed by "I have made my Peace with my God...so by all means, do it".

That day I told my parents that the Peace I needed to make, was with them. I was accepted back into the house, and six months later; the volcano erupted. They both let their anger out on me. I was kicked out of their house and told it was best for me not to communicate with them anymore. They changed the locks to their doors, and I heard the words no child (young or old) ever should hear his mother say..."I prayed to God why I ever had you". I walked out, and never turned back. I have run into them here and there, but we never acknowledge each other. They have yet to meet their youngest granddaughter Elizabeth, and I seriously doubt that will happen anytime soon.

What troubles me the most is I am out of the family, fine, but they tend to take it out on my brother, his family, and my sister and her children. We found out through two cousins that my younger sister had a miscarriage back in October. We learned about this in mid December. I have yet to be told anything by my younger sister. All the other family members found out before my siblings. This Christmas Rae (DGF) and I talked and argued a bit over my parents, and how my older sister asked me to please go make peace with them. I flat out told her I tried that already. They cast me out and threw the proverbial olive branch in my face.

I just found it easier to isolate myself for the time being. On top of all this, back in early November, another childhood friend called and told me that his mother was in the hospital also. She suffered a mild stroke. She is much better now, but it was a real shock to hear that she had suffered a stroke. I just found it better to isolate myself for a while, no, really, I am okay and will not fall into that dark place. I just found it easier to withdraw a bit and get my thoughts together. This thing with my parents has been sad, but oh well. It is what they wanted after all.

It feels good to get feelings, thoughts and emotions off one's chest...even though it is with a Disney Family I have yet to meet. And PamelaK, I truly am sorry. I do hope we can meet soon. I still have your number and plan to call you soon if that is okay.

Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Hanukkah....and a Happy New Year to you all. Thank you for allowing me to share my troubles. And I hope I haven't missed too much around here.

[chezp]

I am so sorry for everything you've been going through.

[3dogknight]

[Teresa]

I'm sorry you've had to go through so much turmoil. It's hard when family doesn't love you the way they should. Your sister's miscarriage, she may have never intended anyone to know about. Maybe she told a friend who told more people when she expected it to remain quiet. Honestly, it's not something I'd have told anyone more than my best friend(s). I've had a few of them, and except for the ones that happened after we'd told the family I was pregnant, we didn't tell anyone. It's a private hurt. Don't hold that against your sister. Just let her know you heard about it and how sad you are for her.
Pixies that you can find some peace in your relationships, no matter how it turns out.

[rella]

Welcome back.............sorry for what you have been put through..........stay strong with the support you have with your "family" and friends........I consider you "a hero".

[Huntermom]

Charlie, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please get some ppropfessional help in regard to what to do about your relationship with your parents. it may not change anything but it may help you understand it better and let go of some of the hurt feelings.

I hope your new year is better.

[KMB733]

I'm very sorry for everything you are going through with your family.


Many blessings for a Happy New Year!

[Luvsun]

I am so sorry about all of the family issues and the very sad way you are being treated by your family!
I do hope that the next year brings you peace!

[Cam22]

I hope the new year brings you peace and joy.

[CinderAbby]

I'm so sorry to hear about all of your troubles Carlos. Why is it when we get one family drama finally sorted out (you and Charlie and your ex) another one rears it's head. I have no advice but I do send lots of Pixies, Prayers and hugs your way.

[wishes]

I'm so sorry to hear of all of this, Charlie. Sending you

[Starbright]

I was thinking of you the other day, and wondering where you were.
I am so sorry that you are going through all of this with your family!!! Holidays tend to bring the hurts more to the surface too and so many people find it magnified during this time.
I agree
ith Teresa re you're sister and her miscarriage. She may have wanted to keep it quet, and she may not know who knows and who doesn't. For myself it was a difficult subject to bring up with others. Don't hold this against her.

[Eeyore Tattoo]

[joelsmom]

I'm sorry to hear about all of your troubles. I hope the new year brings you peace, comfort, and joy. Best wishes.

[mcneal]

My heart goes out to you. Families can be so difficult to cope with at times....most of us here know this little fact. My hope for you is that you can find peace with your situation and allow it to be stored in the very back of the closet. Leave it back there and don't let it get in the way of the rest of your life. Enjoy your love and your wonderful children. Thank you for all you do for our community.