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TMI

Posted 01-31-2009 at 10:54 PM by EmpressLizBunny

Hello gentle readers, nice to see you all again (assuming anyone's actually reading this). Today is tmi day Yep the long-awaited too much information day you get to hear all the problems with gastric banding that I have had such as PB’ing also known as productive burping, which is when food comes got your esophagus. But you aren't actually throwing up it can however cause you to throw up, because it activates your gag reflex. I experienced this all firsthand today and boy was it fun (in case you couldn't tell. That was sarcasm). I am slightly worried that because of this (the throwing up and stuff). My band has slipped, which could mean I need to go in for another surgery to fix it. I don't think it has. But there's no way to tell except to get tests done and I'd feel really stupid.

Part of my problem is that I don't chew my food well enough. Or wait long enough between bites. I have a hard time with that. Also, I tend to have trouble with hearing my body when it says it's full. I tend not to interpret signals from my body correctly pain tends not register very quickly with me. Sometimes I just wish my body would be normal, and I would be normal. It can be so frustrating to be different (but I like my purple hair). Sometimes I'll forget, and I'll say something makes perfect sense to me and someone else will look at me like I'm crazy whereas if I say that in my group. They can all understand it. Like when I told them my hair was purple, because I want my outside is weird as my inside. Most people, if I tell them that give me a weird look and walk away (you're probably rolling your eyes at me right now). But that's the way I think. I often wonder how other people think how it's different from me. And why that way of thinking is so much more acceptable . to me, my way of thinking is perfectly logical, but seems to mystify everyone else well since everyone else mystifies me, I guess equals out.

I hope my journal entries are too long and rambling for you, but this is how I think and talk. Sometimes it will start out one thing and end up somewhere totally different if there is a set topic for discussion. However, I can usually stay on topic. I try insanely hard to please other people not have the mad at me and such not have them disappointed in me, these are the things I fear. As such, I tend to other people ahead of myself if so I want something and it's within my power to get it for them I likely will making other people happy, tends to make me happy if for no other reason than that, if they're happy. They're not going be mad at me, but also I like to see other people happy, and know they had a hand in that it's a nice feeling.
Well since my sleep meds are starting to kick in, I better sign off for tonight. So if there's anyone reading this. Thank you for reading, if there's not then I'm talking to thin air (oh well) have a good night. And good morning, if you're reading this in the morning. Great day. Happy weekend. Good week, depending on when I post next and when you read this.
Sincerely yours Liz da bunny (Empress of all she sees)

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