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[Kruggie]

Okay gang,
My DH no longer allows me to watch the news. I fear that he may have the right idea. I left the t.v. for the first time really since the disaster today to drive him to pick up his car at the Garage. (huge bill...but another story.) Anyway, I was driving as for I dont care to have him drive my car..he moves my seat and stuff and I can never get it back to the right spot. I am driving along and we are not talking, just being quiet, as we all have been the last few days. I suddenly hit the brakes, just for a second, didn't come to a complete stop or anything, just a little jolt of the brakes. Then I just silently cried.
Why you ask? Well this is the part where I am questioning my sanity.
You see, for a split second, one measely second as I was clipping down the highway, I saw myself in the cockpit of a plane about to crash into the World Trade Center. As clear as day, for that split second. I was sick to my stomach.
DH says I have been watching too much, I guess he is right, so I am banned from the t.v. for now. I guess I have left this get too far into my brain. But honestly it is all I can think about, DH is rather angry with me but he knows I tend to dwell. I am hoping that I am not the only one out there who has watched to much t.v.

I am now making a resolution to continue to pray for victims, and focus my worries on what the future holds instead of rehashing the terror of it all. Which as of yet I havent seemed to be able to get past.

So there is a ban on the news at my house for now, I am allowed to watch the presidential addresses, but DH thinks it's wise if I discontinue viewing the families looking for their loved ones and the likes.

I would love it if someone out there could tell me that this is normal, and that I will never have that split second of terror again because honestly I feel guilty about being that terrified even if for only that second.

Tell me I am normal!
Sheesh, now you all will think I'm nuts.

[AKLRULZ]

I don't think the group will think that you are nuts - more normal than anything. This is the single worst event in the history of United States and the stories of the people lost and those left behind are just incredibly heartbreaking - in fact, heartbreaking is too mild of a word. Our life as we know it has been shattered - we have ALL been impacted, some more directly than others. I would certainly suggest you talk to a professional grief counselor and to make an appointment now, as I'm sure that their calendars will book up quickly now. If you are an employee, perhaps your employer has an Employee Assistance Program - I know that we reminded all of our employees that they can access this for free if they need to talk about their feelings.

While we haven't banned TV in the house, we are being more conscious of how long it is on. It's important to be informed, but we don't care to see anymore replays of the initial destruction and the mayhem that followed.

So, take care of yourself and I'll be praying for you. I think you are perfectly normal. Hang in there!

GOD BLESS AMERICA!

[ 09-15-2001: Message edited by: Dadtojbj ]

[LilMarcieMouse]

Yes I agree with Dadtojbj we all handle things diffrently.Who knows how I would react livivng close to one of the events.It wont hurt to talk to a proffesanle.Good luck and some pixie dust to help.

[Belle*]

You are NOT crazy. But you may be having some Post-Traumatic Stress symptoms. This is to be expected after an event of this magnitude. If you watch West Wing, they did some excellent episodes dealing with this topic last season. Here is a link to a good decription that also has links to other sites: Anxiety Network.

Please feel free to come here and vent if you need too. We are always here to listen!!

[mcneal]

I know how you feel! I think they need to back off on the 24-hour coverage. How can we get back to normal otherwise. You hang in there and if you think talking to someone will help then by all means find someone. Try to do normal things and concentrate on happy, productive things. mary

[pinkerbell]

You are not crazy. On Tuesday afternoon we heard military planes outside, and people were actually crying at their desks out of fear. I personally reached my breaking point last night, after arriving home from work at the end of such a sad and heartbreaking week. I couldn't stand to watch one more minute of tv or even to go online. I finally just cried myself to sleep around 8:45 last night.

TV is getting out of hand. Now they are at the point where they are reporting a lot of things only to come back later and say that they were rumors. I just can't stand to watch that plane crashing into the World Trade Center one more time, or to see the buildings collapsing.